Wednesday, January 9, 2013

This Heart of Mine

This year I decided that I was going to live fearlessly. I want to embrace life for all that it has to offer; not cowering in the corner or watching from the sidelines. However, being fearless does not mean to be careless; I've been plenty careless with my heart to know the difference. I've thrown it around enough to have acquired some bumps and bruises along the way. 
We are told in Proverbs 4:23 to guard our hearts for it guides our life. Guard your heart. The first image that popped into my head when thinking of guarding my heart was Frodo guarding the precious ring. 

Frodo vowed to protect the ring, risking everything to ensure its safety. Imagine if we protected our hearts the way he guarded the ring. He protected the ring from Sauron, from Gollum, from his friends, and from himself. From himself. You see, sometimes we have to protect our hearts from ourselves. We easily get impatient and frustrated, causing us to rush into things and act carelessly. Protecting our hearts means that we have to wait. We have to stop listening to what the world is saying and start listening to what God is saying. 

I am impatient. I want all the good stuff, and yes, I want it now. But, that's not how it works. God's written this beautiful life for me, and I have to read it page by page; taking it day by day. Jeremiah 29:11 promises us that God has plans for our lives, plans that are good, one's that will give us hope. Guarding my heart means that I have to have faith in that.

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Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Happy New Year!

2012...
The past year has been one for the books. It has been a year of change and a year of growth. I have found new strength in myself and confidence in the plans God has for me.  
Last night as we were out for dinner, talking about the thing we were most thankful for in the year 2012. My first reaction, and a true one, was getting my internship. However, as excited as I am for the experience to come through this, I thought more about it, and I am most thankful for what I've learned about myself in the past year. We live in a life of uncertainty and change. I am constantly changing, as are the people and the world around me; and I love that. I've learned to rely less on verification through other people and more on faith in who I am and who God is making me. 

And as for 2013...
There are a lot of 'lasts' this year will bring, but I can't even explain to you how pumped I am for the 'firsts' that are headed my way.